A Trip To My Inner Thoughts.

I still can't believe that it ended this way.

I am truly devastated. 

There are so many things that we promised to do for each other example; photoshoot, eating at Ben’s, play with your lomograhy cameras, going Markets together, shopping and so much more.

We even pinky promised that this long distance relationship will work and I have my promised but you fail to commit it. I was having a great time spending every second talking through a webcam. Stayed up late just to talk to you even I’m tired from work. That’s commitment.

What made me like you even more? Your personality. You are just full of jokes that could make me laugh for hours. We just have that vibe of free and easy relationship. We could just talk anything, everything and laugh about it and vulgar words conversation could laugh our heads off. I have difficulty having conversation with my previous ones. There’s nothing much we could talk and that’s one of the reason it ended. To me, this relationship is so much different. So many things I could just babble about. It’s different for me which I find it’s a good thing.

You have made me the happiest girl the moment I went out with you for the premiere “Bullets to the Head” I felt something in me, feelings. That is rare because for the past 3 years, I don’t have feelings towards anyone. I am glad as well you felt the same way as well until the broke up where you told me I was a rebound. Like seriously?!

I don’t get the meaning of rebound. I mean you’re heartbroken from the previous relationship and you need to find a target to have all the lovey dovey couple does, after for a while break up and let her hanging. Is that what rebound looks like? I would say that is the CRUELEST thing to do towards a girl. A rebound could be made to a new relationship from there .You have let the girl drawn into you and yet you just let it go by saying “I think we should break up”

I MEAN COME ON! That is the most pathetic, childish and selfish thing to do. Thinking about yourself instead of your partner as well. How is she going to feel? What if the girls are like the ones that willing to commit suicide just for a break up, you will definitely feel guilty because she died because of you. (Well, I won’t commit suicide because I haven’t get married yet HAHAHA) *JOKES*

But honestly speaking here from my heart. I really thought our relationship could take us further due to our interests which are SUPER similar. We love photography, we love fashion, we love to party, we love supermarkets (weird I know), we love movies, we love food and etc.  Is not easy for me to fall for a person, my expertise are pretty high. You may not be the good looking one, what I matter is the connection and I could feel connection between us. Guess you don’t. AND I am willing to get an air ticket to Adelaide JUST to see you, spend some time with you like a little vacation of ours. I am FUCKING SERIOUS but hey it’s over now. 

You told me, that I am like the ideal one because of our interest similarity but now I think back and wonder, are your words meant it or just faking it. That is my biggest question mark in my thought at the moment. Another thing, you know is not EASY to start from scratch when you like someone. You have to go through the process again which I hate it.

Well, it has been 4 days now. I don’t know what you up to over there 8 hours far away but here I wishing you all the best. 

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Chapter 742 : Deep

Sometimes in every girl smile, there is something that is bothering her. To not show her sadness, fake a smile and let people think she's fine and happy. That is a hard part to keep.

Chapter 741 : Forever Alone

Chapter 740 : Open Ceremony for Black Box Studio @ KDU

Good Morning ! I'm blogging 9 in the morning, so rare. 

Anyways, yesterday the Black Box Studio has finally launched and we ( the PARTS members )  are excited because we get to used the studio to dance once is open. So YAY ! 

The Black Box is for the new program in KDU called Entertainment Arts Course it's more on to theater, acting and so on. 

Yesterday we have lots of media and also some VIP guest. One of it is a Hong Kong Director called Ko Chi Sum.

Once all the speeches, photographing, we went into the studio for some spectacular performance but our own students. :D

1st up was the Dream Girls performance.

Secondly will be a Cantonese song by Kevin Lim and Hong Leong. 

Furthermore, Ian Steven Ong playing the guitar for this guy which I forgot his name. Singing Waiting Outside The Lines by Greyson Chnace.

Next time is Meghan singing Rolling In The Deep by Adele. Best performance and I love the starting of the song when Ian played. 

Last but not least Ian Steven Ong singing Nice Guy by the Youtubers Kev Jumba and others. Back up dancers are Jun Meng and Nabilah. 

Ending position. Everyone gather up and bow and have a applause going on. Taking pictures with the director and have lunch at the 4th floor which mostly student rarely go up because is the CEO's place. 

AND the ceremony has closed. It was fun taking pictures and be like those "photographers". :P Maybe I should do this kind of Part Time job. 

WHO WANTS TO HIRE ME ? 

All this pictures are all photographed by myself and no edit what so ever. :)

xx

Chapter 739 : Shopping Madness

*poof with a smoke* Hello ! 

Sorry for not updating and yes I broke my promise. MY BAD! 

Yesterday, I went to Jaya One Market with Meghan and Tyler for a yearly ( i think) bazaar going on and there are TONS of blogshop there. I actually spent about 100 bucks there. Is actually pretty reasonable price a few shops. We went there early around 10.30 to get a free tote bag brought to you by Topshop. I love the tote bag. :DD

Saw a lot of stuff which are vintage, loveeee! They even have a pet adoption which they are so adorable and sad at the same time because there was a few dogs were having a allergy or something on their bodies so that's why they are covering with dots. Poor thing. :( 

Vintage style.

Awwwww, :( There there.

We walked about few rounds with another companies Ashley and Chutipond and had lunch at Kissaten a Japanese Restaurant. Pretty prices but the food is not bad. 

My Katsudon. I don't really like it because it has raw eggs all over it. 

Their specialty, burgers. It is very yummy. :D

Meghan's sets has dumplings.

After our lunch, we walked a few shops and decided to head back home. It was pretty tiring and the weather is bloody hot. They also have food bazaar and those food looks tempting. I capture one photo is Popsicle, lots of flavors but did not purchase it. 

I'm pretty some of you or maybe none are interested on what I bought. 

1.

15 bucks vintage little bag. Cute aye?

2.

5 bucks Shimmering gold top. 

3.

Toga purple top. 15 bucks only!

4. 

45 bucks pink oxford shoe with fringe. 

Last but not least

5.

20 bucks butterfly necklace. 

The coolest part on that day was I got photography by Tongue In Chic. :D I feel so happy and also honored . Hope I could see my face in their website soon. :D

Chapter 732: Confused

For this week, I felt that I am very confused and clueless on my actions. Lately my mood swings are back again and is not pretty at all. By the faces from my friends when they sees me in a bad mood. 

At the moment, I was smiling and few minutes later I just kept my mouth shut and not talking or responding to people's question. I even talk to a few of my friends in a high tone which I feel very bad once my words are out. I didn't mean to do it, is just my mood does. 

Have you ever felt that you thought you could get through something that it seems to be easy but at the end you fail? Well, I did and I fail BIG TIME. I  really wish there's a second chances. I always think that there's hope and maybe faith will bring us together or something. The hardest part is waiting. Everyone hates waiting because sometimes is a waste of time hoping that is your turn but is not. Well, I am loyal and I will wait for my faith comes.

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Well, enough of that. I posted a new look on LOOKBOOK. Feel free to hype me or give a comment. :)

xx ; M.

Chapter 731 : Gone

Hello ! 

Can you believe that it is on the May? I still remember new year eve, well actually I don't but you get the point there right. hah

Sorry I haven't been updating much because 

1. No internet at my place just using a broadband and there is limits whereby I don't want to cross over the boarder line.

2. Not much free time to blog due to this semester is going to be a hectic one. I took 6 subjects this semester.

( crazy right, I know )

Hmmm, there's pretty much stuff going on but some is I can't really recall what was it. 

Shall look at my facebook " photo of you " so that I could recall what happen. heh and also my blog is kinda blaaaa right now.

Thursday, just finished breakfast at Bon Bon. #vain moment.

At One World Hotel swimming pool area. Visit my uncle and cousin which are from London. :)

Celebrating Estima's Birthday at Hokkaido Sushi #MacamYes family. :3

Cousin with my uncle. xx

Cousin. xx

Well, I think that's about it ? Sorry this is such a messy blog. Is just that I can't find any topic to type this days. :( I'm sorry ! 

Chapter 730 : Welcome LookBook

I am on LookBook. Do hype or give comment about my outfit. :)

 

XX.

Chapter 730 : Honesty

Honesty is the key to make everything a better place. It might hurt/offend or whatever shit, is still the best policy in everything. Friendship, Relationship. 

xx

Chapter 729: Dance Evolution II @ Kedah

4th April 2012

It was a great experience dancing at another state for a high school competition. The atmosphere were way different than others in KL. We took bus from Pudu Raya to Alor Star. Our bus starts its journey at 11. It wasn't really a comfortable journey and it was Brandon's birthday. I bought for him a Twin Pack Baskin Robin ice-cream filled with Chocolate Chip Mint. He was rushing so I have no time to take picture of the gift. Oh well.

Back to the topic.

5th April.

We reached Alor Star about 6.30 and Ariel's uncle pick us up. We checked in Leverage Hotel around 10 and we stay in a suite. Is not what you think it is. Is still small but very pretty room.We  will be performing at SM Keat Hwa school. We had practice in the evening to test the stage and also practice our moves.

Heartbbeat.

We had dinner and have a little meeting with the other people. Ariel, Riyal and Joey will be emceeing and they need to plan and etc. After that, Ariel, Jun Meng, Riyal and I went to a mall to find socks and I was lack of shorts. I bought a shorts and also a DVD. The Exorcist collection for one 1 buck. FREAKING CHEAP RIGHT? Reached back hotel and we start to watch the 1st Exorcist.  

Next day, we had breakfast at Ariel's cousin's place and we walked back to our hotel. It was just a short distance. We took a nap and watching Emily Rose. It was very nice actually. We changed, make-up and packed all our stuff ready to check out. We brought all our luggage to the school and leave at 1 classroom.

The show started and ended according the plan. It was a very interesting night and we get to see which group has the ability to dance. So far all of them has and a few were very entertaining especially a group name Hunter. Their final battle dance was ermmm, funny? Their songs choices were all LMFAO and one of the guy wiggle his junk. xD

After the event, we had supper with Ariel's cousin family and we went to the bus terminal for our bus. Leaving at 11.30 and reached back KL abour 6.30. Took LRT back to Ariel's yellow house and I took a nap.

I went back home around 3. 

At first the journey for me was bittersweet because I missed my best friends birthday party and I felt guilty about it but when I was on that day the event, I change my mind on that. :) I'm glad I participate for it. 

xx