I still can't believe that it ended this way.
I am truly devastated.There are so many things that we promised to do for each other example; photoshoot, eating at Ben’s, play with your lomograhy cameras, going Markets together, shopping and so much more.
We even pinky promised that this long distance relationship will work and I have my promised but you fail to commit it. I was having a great time spending every second talking through a webcam. Stayed up late just to talk to you even I’m tired from work. That’s commitment.
What made me like you even more? Your personality. You are just full of jokes that could make me laugh for hours. We just have that vibe of free and easy relationship. We could just talk anything, everything and laugh about it and vulgar words conversation could laugh our heads off. I have difficulty having conversation with my previous ones. There’s nothing much we could talk and that’s one of the reason it ended. To me, this relationship is so much different. So many things I could just babble about. It’s different for me which I find it’s a good thing.
You have made me the happiest girl the moment I went out with you for the premiere “Bullets to the Head” I felt something in me, feelings. That is rare because for the past 3 years, I don’t have feelings towards anyone. I am glad as well you felt the same way as well until the broke up where you told me I was a rebound. Like seriously?!
I don’t get the meaning of rebound. I mean you’re heartbroken from the previous relationship and you need to find a target to have all the lovey dovey couple does, after for a while break up and let her hanging. Is that what rebound looks like? I would say that is the CRUELEST thing to do towards a girl. A rebound could be made to a new relationship from there .You have let the girl drawn into you and yet you just let it go by saying “I think we should break up”
I MEAN COME ON! That is the most pathetic, childish and selfish thing to do. Thinking about yourself instead of your partner as well. How is she going to feel? What if the girls are like the ones that willing to commit suicide just for a break up, you will definitely feel guilty because she died because of you.
(Well, I won’t commit suicide because I haven’t get married yet HAHAHA) *JOKES*
But honestly speaking here from my heart. I really thought our relationship could take us further due to our interests which are SUPER similar. We love photography, we love fashion, we love to party, we love supermarkets (weird I know), we love movies, we love food and etc. Is not easy for me to fall for a person, my expertise are pretty high. You may not be the good looking one, what I matter is the connection and I could feel connection between us. Guess you don’t. AND I am willing to get an air ticket to Adelaide JUST to see you, spend some time with you like a little vacation of ours. I am FUCKING SERIOUS but hey it’s over now.
You told me, that I am like the ideal one because of our interest similarity but now I think back and wonder, are your words meant it or just faking it. That is my biggest question mark in my thought at the moment. Another thing, you know is not EASY to start from scratch when you like someone. You have to go through the process again which I hate it.
Well, it has been 4 days now. I don’t know what you up to over there 8 hours far away but here I wishing you all the best.